Out OF my ContrOL

The mountain-high-notes just out of my control. =(

Feeling bad and tension..=(

Staring on all those medical terms for the whole day with no input.=(

However i still believe that maybe...maybe they will go into my brain if i stare on them for a longer time. I know it is silly....=(

I should not give up.... i tell myself....but my brain need some rest.=(

I do hope that i can be as genius as others...or just be a typical medical student who can study all the day....I just not and can't. =(

3 subjects....and there are about 20 chapters for each of them...how wor??? even study since holiday...the memories will just faded away as time goes by.=(

Seriously..i am frustrated for the whole day, i can feel lethargy, helplessness.......i hope i can cope with it...i need to.....


I wish tomorrow will be a better day....=(


I am totally out of control today....lost all my sensibility and strength....



*waieng ask me to study beside him...i dun think i can do it, i prefer study alone...if not, i will study with tears rolling unstoppable=(*