Stir up the bad memories..

This is so true.

For several reasons,I was blamed for the end of last relationship.
It's always a bad memory for me with those hurtful words.
As i really don't know i am that bad in somebody's eyes.
No matter how i justified myself, it meant nothing.
It's like a heart of stone.
That's sad enough.
People tend to see how bad a person yet never reflect themselves. Sometimes i make this same mistake too.
As i read a book, a meditation book i suppose, one of the paragraph sounds as this, errmm..it's a chinese book.
世上有80%的情侣性格都不合，可能他喜欢打球，而她喜欢看书，可是真正能一起到老的，一定是那些能 互相容忍和谅解。 something like that lar.
As somebody told me, they are many parents who actually stay together because of the children and duty but they dont really have love.The love between them has vanished after years of marriage.
How much you agree with this statement?
As i walked into ward today, most of the patients are oldies.
Get closer to them, i notice wrinkles, the skin that loss of elastics, the skin that full with pigmented spot. Youthful is not eternity.Someday..we gonna turn like them.
Almost every of them are accompanied by their spouse.
They are the most blissful human in the world, even after so many years, he is there for her.
She is there for him.
They must come across a lot of hardship before this.
There must be times when they doubting the love between each other, there must be times they loss their faith on each other, there must be something happened to make them realised they cant live without him/her.
Guess marriage itself is a challenge...for one person, you have to live 50 years with one person.
Hmmm...i dont believe there is no love and the love can simply vanished.

Ok..i dont know what am i talking about.
Just simply hope that all the love birds can really appreciate each other.
Sometimes i just smile away when i see my friends confronting with their partners.
Every couples are learning.
We need to learn with mistakes.

But some hurts not meant to be healed.

I believe if you really love someone..
That is a feeling inside your heart and you wont doubt on it..
you know..who is she /he..

And i know when people are doubting...
They dont really love you...


I remembered the many declinations..
So many apologize and so many NOs...
'sorry....'
I was so dishearted and and pick up the scattered pieces of heart
Since that times, i just knew it...there is no place of me in your heart

well..it's over.


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Is always the wrong flow to watch a movie first then only go for book..
then..you will never again open up the book...
SIGH.
and i am end up here.
Flooding by the bad memories...

watched the latest movie of JetLi..''Sorcerer and the white snake'
Typical oldies love story...
Still..it is better than book...

It's freaking cold here...
Stormy rain this evening...
and i slept through it..
Still..it's better than hot weather..

Have to stay in Klang to finish up those books for this weekend to exchange a carefree Haji holidays..BIG SIGH.=/

Enjoy yourself people.