heart murmuring

*this is what my heart murmured to my brain and it become my words eventually*

Indeed,i am having my holidays now.
I am enjoying every moment i spent with my family and PPS.
However, i felt damn guilty when i am lying on my bed each midnight.
Don't ask me why...
Because my notes still well packed in my luggage...
See....this is an expected condition, no matter how hard i persuade myself, the final winner is still PPS..!!
Forget about that mountain-high-notes for a while...
i am waiting for so long to watch 'Grey's anatomy' since i know the existence of it...
And now, i am craving for it...LOL!!
I do hope i can help Dr. Burke during a bypass surgery or maybe a heart transplantation, i hope i can meet a good teacher just like Dr. Bailey.....hmmmm....
I am enjoying all those bloody organs, complicated surgery and medical terms in drama.
Ha...of course, romance in the hospital....
Ever think of having an affair with consultant or patients???hahahaaha

Seriously, I think i should get some life during holidays
No electronic screen, No books
Ya...away from screen but not books!!!
It's suck when you need to study during holidays.
In fact, this holidays is totally suck.
Things popped out and ruined it.
Sometimes, you can't always get what you what...and this is life!!
Despite all those unpleasant happening and, i am still here...
Waiting to lift my eyelids when the sunlight creep into my room through tiny slit of curtain
Waiting for the sun to disappear from the coastline
Waiting to let down my eyelids when the moon hang high on the sky
Ya...don't give up life....
Maybe we just need to learn to ignore all those trivial thingy and be more optimistic...
Things always turn out well as times flies...is it???phewww.....

And, one more thing...
I am overwhelming with inferiority currently...
Maybe not currently...it exists long time ago..
And, i don't want to talk about it....
For most of the time, people just need some compliment...especially from the one you cares
You never know how powerful 'good job' can be....
It might be a great impacts in someone's life....
When we are toddlers, we learnt to walk.
Each fall down, mummies will said, baby is doing good.....
We got compliment each time we fall hard during our tender year.
As we grown up, we get less.
So...maybe we can change.....
Go and rub your little sister or brothers' head and praise them...
Haha....

Last but not least,
Selamat Hari RAya to all my muslim friends...